So, I've been reading (yes I know, shocking isn't it!) this book that isn't really telling me what to do as much as help me figure out what I want and how I want to do it. If that makes sense, read on. I've been struggling with this kind of large concept that I just can't seem to get me head around. It's gotten to the point that I am nearly panicking at the mere thought. I feel a bit unaccomplished. I am nearing 23 and the 5 year mark from high school graduation. Kids I babysat are graduating. How'd that happen? My peers are getting married off, making partner, graduating and have one job that pays the bills. Not to mention those of them having . . . not puppies, no they got puppies awhile ago, but babies. Yes. I'm at a place where I can see the future as it relates to the summer, but everything else is a complete blur.
Okay, so that's my current crisis: the 20 something crisis. Now I know what I want to do, err what I don't want to do. I don't want to finish school, at least not now. I don't want to continue living in my parents house for the rest of my life. And I don't want to move half way around the country for a change of scenery when I like California.
So, now that all of that is on the table, here's how I'm changing my life. Well for one I'm going to start living it. No more sidelines for Brownie. When I want something, I'll find a way to get it. This does not mean that I'm going to become some self centered-materialistic-plastic swiping-skinny shopaholic. It means that this is my one short life. And I am going to live it. I've already started to take charge of my health. Allergies aside, I am so glad to be healthy again. I've realized how unfond, if that's a word, of ER's I am. yea, not a good place to be, but some cool scars to show for it. I've also decided that i am the one who made myself fat. Yep that's right, I've finally found the culprit. So, I've already taken action to fix that. I took some rather revolting pictures of myself, just as a bit of encouragement. They will most likely NEVER reach the Internet, at least not for a while. Like when I'm skinny and can physically show how mush of an improvement I have made! Okay, so I am also going to do everything. Well, everything that interests me at least. May will be the Kick off of my website, where all things brownie will be in one fantastic home. This blog and my promotional myspace will be connected. I'm very excited about that. Okay, well I'd better skedaddle because Kim Possible is on and my tummy is a bit grumbly.
I'm still kinda looking for Mr Right! As in I'm not conducting interviews or looking/taking out adds, but if he happened upon my life then YAY! So if you see him, you can send him my way, or not. And if he happens to be a certain lead singer-guitar player-former drummer-Prince fan- music producer-genius-and PW's best friend, then that might be alright too!
