Saturday, February 2, 2008

It's about time . . . I guess

This is something I'm not sure if I want to share with the rest of the world. But then again, I'm not sure many people read my blog anyway. Tonight, I'm sad. I'm truly sad and I don't know how to fix this, for the first time in my life I can't fix my problems. I've never dated. I've never had a boyfriend. I'm 22.5 years old and past the age both my older sisters were engaged/married. Some people have said to just enjoy my single life. I'm free and can do anything I want. I do want a career, I want to travel and have a lived life. But I want someone to do that with. I'm a homebody more than anything I guess. I want to get married. I want to have a family. I want that. I really do. I'm not looking for safety and security. I want love and I want to live in my own home with my husband. I don't want to continue passing my peers who are married and some with children. I don't understand what is so wrong with me that I can't find someone. I'm pretty. I have a great figure, sure a few extra inches here and there but I look good. I like the way I look. I'm a fairly confidant woman. I walk into venuse to see somone perform and i own the place. Seriously, peopel have asked me who I work for or if I'm with the band. Thats how I carry myself. So, where is my prince charming, huh?